“Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests to send people…”

“Depression is such a cruel punishment. There are no fevers, no rashes, no blood tests to send people scurrying in concern. Just the slow erosion of the self, as insidious as any cancer. And, like cancer, it is essentially a solitary experience. A room in hell with only your name on the door.”

Martha Manning, from Undercurrents: A Life Beneath the Surface

“And no, she isn’t the easiest girl to love. She has this bad habit of overthinking, she tends to…”

“And no, she isn’t the easiest girl to love. She has this bad habit of overthinking, she tends to overreact more than she should, and she gets a little insecure every once in a while. She’ll be needy for your attention, she’ll want to literally take up all of your time, and she’ll require a lot of reassurance. If anything, she is everything you wouldn’t want in a girlfriend. She isn’t capable of fully trusting you, she doesn’t know when to stop fighting with you even if she’s wrong, and she has no problem pushing you away if she feels like you’re close to hurt her. Loving her will stress you out, loving her will make you angry, loving her will break your heart at times, loving her will test you, loving her will challenge you, and loving her will change you. It may get so demanding that you’ll be tempted to walk away, it may get so hard that you’ll think about giving up, and it may get so complicated that you won’t want to deal with her anymore. Loving her means you get to see her at her worst and most vulnerable and that is something that you’ll have be strong enough to handle because she needs someone who’s patient enough to understand why she is who she is today. It’s not gonna be an easy relationship with her. But if she is in love with you, then she can promise that you’ll be loved with such passion and intensity that you’ll forget what life felt like before she came along because she’ll always be there to put your heart back together after breaking it. Maybe she’s not the best at being loved, but she’s pretty amazing at loving.”

“There are two people you’ll meet in your life. One will run a finger down the index of who you are…”

“There are two people you’ll meet in your life. One will run a finger down the index of who you are and jump straight to the parts of you that pique their interest. The other will take his or her time reading through every one of your chapters and maybe fold corners of you that inspired them most. You will meet these two people; it is a given. It is the third that you’ll never see coming. That one person who not only finishes your sentences, but keeps the book.”

i keep you my Lov, i will always keep you.